Sexually Molested by My Brother: I just Feel so Broken and Forgotten in My Family
I need some help deciphering what happened to me as a child. When I was around 11, my older brother (he’s 6 years older than me, so he was 17) gathered our entire family for a family meeting. I, of course, had no idea what was going on. Bear in mind, this was around the time my brother had found Jesus, so he probably had this meeting to “confess his sins” or something like that.
With my entire family in the room, my brother confessed to kissing me while I slept every night when I was a child. To this day, I don’t know the extent of what he did to me. I don’t know if it went past kissing or not. I never asked. If I had to guess, I’d say it probably went further. This happened to me when I was 6-7 years of age, but I of course never knew.
My parents freaked out and kicked my brother out of the house. My family was heartbroken. My brother came back and was forced to sleep in the guest room downstairs. About a week later, everyone went back to normal.
Everyone was a big happy family again, and I was left to deal with this really weird situation. I’m not even sure it was molestation. My mother (who became an addict shortly after this revelation) told me I was asleep so I couldn’t possibly be affected. She also said I was being a drama queen, and turned on me.
My father took my brother to one therapy session, and I never received therapy for what happened to me. I’m still not sure if I need it. Again I’m not sure if it’s even considered “sexual abuse.”
Here I am 8 years later and it of course still bothers me. My brother isn’t sorry about it. When I tried speaking to him about the topic, he laughed. He also blames me for my mother’s addiction. I just feel so broken and forgotten in my family.
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